Not good enough!!

A general feeling I live by lately, ... maybe it deepened after my second interview with Microsoft (but that is to be told later) maybe after I realized I was a total retard in my plans for marriage. I'm not sure, ... but I know I had the idea before, but now the feeling, the constant feeling that I'm not good enough. I reveled for years in the feeling that I am actually good, in many aspects better than the average, ... maybe it's time now to realize I'm not good enough, might be the feeling I need to enhance myself, find my bugs, resolve my weaknesses.