I'm tired!

I'm tired, I'm blocked, don't wanna work, don't wanna talk, don't want anything. I feel that I can't write, can't read, can't talk to people, can't work. I feel damn week and vulnerable. Oh shit, this should not be published. Hooooofffffffffff. Maybe some sheesha would help? Maybe a week in the Himalayas? Or in the sea? Maybe I ned to cry? ... I think that might help, ... well, rest should do, ... but I can't afford rest, ... don't have the time for that kind of luxury, ... . Something else, ... I need a MOTIVE, where is my motive? why am I going on? Inertia? What is it that I want? To be successful? buh, ... to be "The Best"? The Best my ass!!

I need a motive, ... I need a purpose.